same old story

note: this song inspired my 'subtitle'

[chorus]

It's the same old story, same old lies.
They crawl around so beautifully,
They sleep without hopes or rights.
The same old story same old lies.
The end could never follow up,
The world was there to swallow us.

Hopes and dreams
Whats the use?
It all seems so dead, alone.
Same old story
Never could explain the drone.
Tell me what to make of us,
Tell me is it real,
I want to know why dreams become
The essence of surreal

Tell me, can I not become
All I never thought to feel
The dreams and deeds, so innocent
It's like all I think's not real

No, it never was,
That same old story always told
We're a sold out ticket box,
A sold out movie's ticket box.

[*]

Lie alone,
I command you,
I beseech you to desert
The past is gone
We are a lost cause,
A futile lost cause.
Futile dreams,
Please tell me,
Am I not?
Why am I not?
Futile chances
Can I be everything I thought?

[chorus]

Tell me what to make
Of all I never understood
Tell me how to break,
Is it real
Or is it fake?

[chorus]

[*]

vanity
vanity
vanity
same old story
vanity

G and J

you stretch your hand out lovingly
caress my shoulder
shelter me
and through your heartbeat i can see
i love you more than anything
the tree bark fades
as night does come
and i can't see our sign
scrawled in with your red pocket knife
love for G and J
and i whisper
into your ear
the words i feel
this intense fear
for whether this is real or all a dream

cuz i don't even
know
where the world
goes
when the lights go out
and the trees go away

yet, you cared enough to say

isn't once better than never at all
isn't once better than to distantly fall

so even when the sky is gray
i'll pray for you
another day
you are my soul, my tender J
and though this is a dream,
it seems
I'll make you think i'm real
the clouds are parting
on my world
i know you're gone
as we unfurl
this recipe for Happily Ever After
the sky is blue
and i'm awake
where did the rain run off to
for when it falls
i can see
you clearly through the fog
though of course
it's hard to tell
if i'm crying anymore
these tears are washing as they fall
away from my sore face
they hit the ground
and then they're dead
or maybe just replaced
with your dear smile
one last time
scrawled upon your face
and on the tree
and in the dirt
this love
shall never fade
this love for G and J

sky blue that flows

Breathless,
I am small
In space
Torn, alone
In time
In fate
And though I cry
When I awake
I’m small
But I can instigate
Weak
Though I am soulless
Bate
A sunrise greets me

Hearts defeat me
Roses cringe
And smiles, fleeting
Tell me, can you see it too
The aura that shines out,
Sky blue
That flows, so smooth,
Round me and you
We are linked
Tied by string
Though we were stuck
So in between
Where are you
When I awake
Breathless,
I am small
In space

the sound of everything

I walk into the light
I see what’s behind me
It’s dark back there
Just like in my dream
I stop for a while
I’m not breathing
I’m not living
I’m just seething
And I
Can hear
My footsteps
Echoing
Though, they’re muffled by the sound
of everything
that’s still breathing
And I
cannot see
my finger tips
As my hand stretches
In front me
It’s grasping at the gate
Yet somehow I can think.
What is that light that caresses me to sleep?

(note: both this and the next post are excerpted from a story I am writing called "Grace")

life as we know it

note: these were the first lyrics i wrote and i wrote them five years ago and i haven't looked at them in forever but i still wrote this from memory. bear in mind i didn't know what i was writing then. i still don't know what i write. but at least i now know the power of my own hand.

look up to the sky,
see the airplanes passing by
look down below,
watch the world fly out the window
you know it's gone
gone forever
life won't come back
back together

and the rain
came pouring down
till the earth
flooded all around
life as we know it will never again be found

see that kid by the swings?
he doesn't know what anything means.
see that flower blooming on?
he doesn't know it'll soon be gone.

but you know it's gone
gone forever
life won't come back
back together

and the rain
came pouring down
till the earth
shattered all around
life as we know it will never again be found

see that tv screen all bright?
with happy shows ever day and night
see the man laughing loud
he don't suspect
not a sound
but you know it's gone
gone forever
life won't come back
back together

and the rain
came pouring down
till the earth flooded all around
life as we know it will never again be found

the place where darkness meets the sky

Never let go
Of this hand that you hold
Just so you know
I’ve been bought and sold
He took me away
That little green elf
But worry not
It’s okay
I sold myself
I wanted to drown
Just like you do
Don’t deny it, it’s something
We’ve all been through
So please clasp my hand
Whilst the moons eclipse
And at least I’ll have warmth at my fingertips
And I’ll guide you to the place of rest
And we’ll embrace it,
This “love”
This death
So hold me tight
Hold me down
That way I’ll never hit the ground
And we can go
To that place
Where darkness meets the sky
Where when we jump
We jump high
This place where sorrow meets the clouds
Where if we fall
We hit the ground
And we never make a sound
So please, tomorrow
Let me drown

Fallen

I think I’ve fallen

Long ago
I used to think that I would know
Eventually
What would become of me
Atop the highest mountain peak
Where I could see the snow

But way up there
It’s so unclear
The earth does shine
From down below
I could never see the snare
All I can see is snow

And all the while
I do wait
For everything to clear

All the while we sit and wait
Trembling in fear

Victimizing
Criticizing
Breathlessly to veer
Away from chance
Away from light
It’s all blocked away

The light is gone
The tunnel long
The snow has yet to faze

Everything does tumble down
Upon our selfish hearts
We hide away
So quietly
In our crumbling caves
Waiting for the shining rays
Of reality
To show their greens and grays

When snow does part
Allowing us

To see the light of day

But maybe we don’t want to see it
Maybe its okay
To remain this unsure shade
Of off white, smokey gray

Maybe I don’t want to ever see the light of day