I'm sorry.
I seem to have upset the past,
now a swirling mass, a mess.
It wriggles at the seams,
attempts to break free.
But I see it
Suppress it.
Tell it to sleep.
To dream.
And breath.
And it kneels over,
crying out in pain.
"It will be alright," I say.
But maybe I'm just vain.
A hypocrite is what I am,
A liar and a fake.
That I don't want to sleep tonight,
I don't want to dream.
I just want to lie alone.
To lose myself,
unseen.
Asleep, I am real.
Awake, I am scared.
And in the state that's in between,
I'm freer than the Lost.
In this state I cry out loud,
In this state, I sing.
In this state I'm by myself.
Immune to vice and sting.
To dream is to see.
To live is to be.
But isn't it better to know than to feel?
To feel is to hurt
to know is to shield.
I want to lie,
alone and cold,
And dream today away.
Because to live today I feel the pain.
And now, I'm tired, shot.
to dream is peace and I am numb.
for now, that's all I've got.
11 comments:
you spelled liar wrong.
the flow is a little weird, but the spacing is really nice,conclusion: i like it. it's really sad though. please tell me you didn't just write this after we talked. it'd make me so sad.
:( ok well now i'm gonna go see if i can write something happy to cheer you up, so when you get a chance, please read it :). (if i'm successful, i'll email it to you, ok?)
Okay. No, it was a while after we talked. Anyways, most of my poetry is sad but that doesn't mean i'm sad
thats good. :)
i attempted writing a poem for you, but i failed because i got sidetracked. I'll send it to you anyways though. part of it is for you.
thanksyou
did you read it? btw, is it just my computer, or did you change your blog layout? it appears white to me.
I did read it. Emailed the comment. oh, and about the format, I just felt like a change.
oh, i know you've been wanting to change it. i just wasn't sure if you actually did or if my computer was going haywire. i do like the new layout though. it seems more pure and hopeful to the future, as opposed to the last, which felt a little darker and secretive.
yes, perhaps it was a change of mood, but mostly I wanted it to be simple and clear cut. No superfluousness. I was feeling straight forward anyway. As far as hope is concerned, maybe. Pureness, I like that idea
i like it too. the simpleness is really nice. there's a word for it in russian, but i'm still in search of a english translation to it.
cool. if you find it, tell me.
i doubt i will, i've been wondering about this word for years. its meaning is kinda like simple and elegant in one, but i don't think there is a word that matches it in englishes b/c just saying simple and elegant isn't quite it either.
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