why?

does everything hurt when i picture your face,
can't deal with the pain, there is no
replace to the things that you said, i thought i could try
cuz really I mean, why would I lie? I just wanted to--ugh
Why does everything hurt?
And it's not just you its like Hell visits Earth...
Like all that I had was taken away
All the mean while I'm just a
Freaking--
Ugh that's the pain, hitting my chest and I can't even
complete my sentences or keep to the rhymes scheme
I mean,enjambment is awesome but not like this not like
Freaking out here bc I'm an old jealous fool it isn't that
he's mine or ever even was honestly just an illusion,
And honestly, Mimi, you've got it made, do you even realize?
Why do you screw everything up? Why do you inflict pain onto others
your such a freaking bad person with such a freaking facade it isn't even
Ugh there it goes again and I've had it
I've had it up to---
I've had everything have everything can't keep emotions is place
do you I have a mental disease? I really think so why else would I be such an
IDIOT
I mean, come on, just saying that G-d has given you, ugh, so much and all you can do
Is take every situation and regurgitate the goodness as breakfast treat,
meanwhile it all piles up and up and overflows from your tainted hands, the hands that sin that
kill that
you don't deserve.
So maybe you don't know everything,
maybe G-d has plans for you you can't comprehend but
I'm sure you're screwing that up too
Because honestly, that's what you do so well nowadays